Now don’t get me wrong I’ve never got scared or nervous about doing a scene.But the last time i shot in Budapest which was my last as i was so fucking angry with my agent there as the agents don’t really give a fuck about their girls they just assume they can handle it,yes they can if they have shot over 10 scenes but some of these poor eastern european girls haven’t so no wonder they are cold performers as they are thrown into Rocco stiffredi for their first scene!
it was my 3rd and last time shooting in Eastern Europe, my personal view is that they are not very professional as in time as you’re in makeup at 9am then you’re waiting around till 2pm to start photos.
my agent became sneaky and lazy in my opinion, she got a lot of the information wrong and was always late on details so then it looked like i was the person in the wrong when I’m ON POINT when its to do with work.
the last trip fucked me off so much i wouldn’t shoot there again, id rather work in a brass house than work there!
on my first shoot on my last tour there, my agent didn’t tell me who i was working with which really fucked me off as i knew something dodgy was going on as no lie i messaged the cunt 7 times that day asking.so long story short my driver picked me up a cool Russian old school gezza we couldn’t communicate much due to the language barrier but we had good convo strongly enough i liked him always on time straight to the point and great with time keeping.
Anyways i said “Ivan where am i fucking going? Ivan laughing ” Rocco office.” i said ” you’re fucking around aint you?”Ivan” no,…. really”
Well i went red with anger i felt like crying with anger i really did.I kept thinking to myself maybe its not Rocco as its at his office,i knew fuck all about this shoot which enraged me as this was the first time the cunt of an agent did this sure she was last min but never not ignoring giving the details to me!
So i walk into the apartment block which is like something off of “Taken”the movie, as in Budapest thats what the entrance to the apartments look like.
i was fuming thinking of canceling but i didn’t wanna look like a cunt or for some reason weak, so i was about to say no, but in my head part of me was saying “just do it don’t be a such a mardy bum!” so i said to Rocco “look i didn’t know i was working with you until 5mins ago, i will shoot but I’m not into hard hard hardcore ok the agent didn’t give any info,so be smooth”
well i dunno if that scene is out there but it was the worst and he wasn’t even being that hard, the guys dick is like a horses dick and a horses dick trying to fit in a pin hole feels like a baby being pushed back inside you.He must of thought i loved it as i was looking at myself in the mirror all the way through,this wasn’t the case in my head i was saying over and over again no lie lol “you can do it, you can take it, block out the pain”fuck me that horse dick fucked me 45mins which felt like a life time and i was so raw as its impossible to get any juices flowing with him.
After that time i made my mind up i aint shooting there again and I’m done with porn!…..In 6months.